i know its been a long time.
merry late christmas.

spent my christmas countdown in a lan shop.
playing games throughout the night.

was feeling somewhat lousy and down today.
just kept feeling useless and stupid for a moment there.
maybe more than a moment.
wasnt even sure what i'm thinking or doing.
mind was in a blank.
think i even pissed my mother off.
cos i refused to open my mouth.
i just kept quiet the whole afternoon.
just dont feel like saying anything i guess.
and i skipped my meals which kind of made her more pissed.
but i'm just not hungry at that time.

i feel better already.